We all napped for close to 1.5 hours. During this time, Yx did koobits on the laptop, played with toys, took out cars and placed them in a different arrangement "给妹妹一点idea", helped herself to teabreak, took pics and selfies with my phone (see pic at the bottom), this whole time without waking us/ asking for any help at all.
I know Yx is capable of being left on her own, in the security and comfort of our home. She has shown that she is. I know she's grown to be independent in that sense. This afternoon routine I described has been so for longer than I can remember.
But I felt different about it today... Maybe it's because it's been a while since we had wholesome, quality time together... maybe because we've been more focused on the little sister's needs lately... Maybe because Yx's birthday is round the corner.... it suddenly hit me that our first-born is picking up independence with every day, she's no longer the "baby" who depended on us for every need and whom we fussed over every other minute.
Perhaps today, she was physiologically 1.5 hours away from us.
Maybe next year, it will be 1 day.
Not too long later, 1.5 days... Before we know it, it'll be 1.5 weeks... then maybe months...
Gosh I'm going to miss her so much.
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